Where to start.....I have not been blogged on here in several weeks because of many different reasons. The first was a a life altering event that I still am trying to cope with; the other was as I found out today simply put a deception and/or attack from the master of deception and lies.
The first reason I will not touch on much tonight as I am still trying to find peace and comfort with what has happened....the death of a beloved uncle. This kind, caring man decided to end his life because the demons that were tormenting him were to much to bear....As I said I am not going to talk about this tonight because I am not ready.
The second reason honestly hurt and angered me but once again God has spoken to me through his word and has shown me the lies of the master of deception. Let me explain.
I love to write. My purpose behind setting up this blog were 2 things: 1. To be accountable to not only devour God's word but also to help others through my blog that I may not know what they are going through or dealing with but God would speak through my devotions or thoughts to them. 2. To be able to write FREELY about my thoughts, my fears, etc. In no way is this blog to push my ideas, my beliefs or anything on anybody but in the process of me sharing what God is showing me others may be ministered to as well.
That being said I wrote several blogs and other than a handful of people I was getting very rude and ultimately mean comments. It hurt. So I deleted all the blogs except for my first one and was going to close this down. But I decided to hold off and pray and see what I should do. After today I have my affirmation that this blog will stay up and I will continue to write.
I had someone...you know who you are...totally unexpected and someone who I never would have thought would have been reading my blogs much less saying that they were good tell me that I am talented and that they loved reading my blogs and so forth. Then it hit me like a ton of bricks...the reason a few people were upset is because I was stepping on some toes with the verses and subjects I was talking about....Sorry but God doesn't care if he steps on your toes, hurts your pride or your feelings. A lot of the stuff I wrote about stepped on my toes just as much as theirs BUT the difference is I am willing to accept this and let God mold me into what he wants. The others took it as an attack because they were living that life and didn't care to hear what God has to say about it....not to mention Satan didn't want me spreading it as well because then what power does he hold.
I am sorry if some of my posts step on your toes, hurt your pride or even your feelings. That is not the point. Everything I write about when it deals with devotions comes straight from His Word...usually The Message Bible....and is the way I feel God has revealed to me what he is saying it is for me....
I hope that all will read and let God speak to you through these posts and will have an open heart to allow God to step on toes when needed and change those areas that need to be changed. But I will not be deleting anymore posts just because someone sends a hateful message to me....That being said lets move on!
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